Girl Never Interrupting

I don't deal well with confrontation. I believe the core of that is because I didn't have great role models for communication/confrontation. When I argued the other side would double down. When I argued , the other side would get louder. When I argued things got worse. So you're stuck with the words stuck in your throat. They feel better and herd, and your voice just echoes back in your hollow head. 

No one wanted to be bad at confrontation. It feels good to yell. You feel powerful. 

The less noise you make. The smaller you get. You get disconnected from yourself. The light gets farther away, and you feel colder. 

You hate yourself. Why are you so weak? You haven't changed. You're still a small child. Your not smart enough to fight back. You just succumb to everything. Your the human version of 

You can't even come up with a good idiom.