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I've focused my whole life on being skinny. Which is such a farce! What is skinny going to get me? Maybe a couple years added to my lifespan. But that's more of a focus on health. I've just focused on the exterior, the facade, the vanity. I thought that would get me the Prince Charming. But I was wrong. Boy, did have it wrong. Prince Charming is just a cage. Shackles. The idea of some kind, hot, intelligent, wealthy, charismatic, funny man is complete fiction. You can't be everything. Either you’re hot and wealthy, but stupid or you're charismatic and funny (those characteristics are a package deal), but then you're not hot. Intelligent and wealthy lacks kindness. Maybe funny and kind are the goal, but then you have to bring the wealth. Maybe that's the secret to life. Ignore what the hippies say. Money does buy happiness. It creates safety. It creates freedom. In third world countries, women often don't have the luxury of love. Maybe that's why weddings are so expensive. It weeds out the weak from the strong. If you can afford a wedding, and then live with another person forever. People need vacations, massages, activities. People need to unwind. Being poor wears on you. When you're poor, you come home tired after working the third double shift in a row. You hint to your boyfriend that it would be nice to celebrate your anniversary. That going out to a restaurant would be a dream. A mini vacation from feeling like a minimum wage slave.  Where you can scarf down food in between wearing a mask for six hours straight. Where you can unzip yourself from your customer service personality. You miss that old Katie Frank. She was bohemian. She drank at coffee shops, and spoke to strangers. An Olympian of people watching. Instead, you're a girl closer to fifty than zero, whose boyfriend just told her that he was only really “madly in love with you for the first six months of their relationship.” That the first wife’s “madly in love” phase lasted for the first 8 years of their relationship. And that's exactly the feeling of being poor. You’re Cinderella, except in reality, rats give you diseases.