My Current Stance of Mawiage

Married life...what is it like? Everyone makes it out to be some beautiful valium dream. I wish I was one of them. Part of me wonders if I was built for happiness. But maybe that thought right there is the real cancer. 

I pity the fool who ends up with me. I am an ongoing mood swing sprinkled in the occasional feeling of numbness. 

I'm lazy. I have acne playing musical chairs on my face. I get too much satisfaction from gossiping. I quit too easily. I believe in the stuff that movies pedals to my demographic. I focus on my looks. I expect some man to come save me. Sometimes I wonder if I was born in the fifties. I could be some happy dumb housewive. It's me daydreaming about the easy way out. And boy do i love the easy way out. 

But married...back to my original idea. Marriage is constant. Marriage is “for the rest of your life” added to every caveat.