My Most Controversial Post Yet
I'm on my second bowl of ice cream. I just had a solid day at the office (aka my “hostess” gig). There's just something so nice about being run around. Most of humans sadness comes from the lack of their metaphorical fidget spinner.
On a side note I was thinking about christmas. What do you think marrys background was. Like who broke her heart. She probably knew that at that time her life was over being a pregnant unmarried woman. I wonder who this “god” really was. Did he make her laugh? Every Time she looked into baby Jesus' eyes did she see a man who haunted her. Was she the ultimate stage mom? Telling Jesus that he was put on this earth to change the world. Talk about the ultimate manifestation! Like think about that!! My parents just told me I was “too sensitive” and that I shouldn't be eating that.
Maybe that's why he hung out with Mary Magdalene. The famously promiscuous women probably reminded him of his mother. They had the same name!! Also i googled if jesus had a last name, and turns out it's not documented. But Marry Magdalene has one. I feel like this means something, I just don't know what it is yet.
Maybe Gabriel the angel will come down and tell me in a dream. I'm more apt to believe in ghosts than in a god. I like to think about the quote “no energy is created nor destroyed”, and so much of people are energy. So much momentum that i can't possibly believe that one last breath and the whole thing fades to black. Better fade to black then hell. The whole hell thing is such a vile thought. I get that it's supposed to be scary, but geez. Like forever!! As a slight commitment phobe it sounds dreadful. Even heaven kinda creeps me out too. Like everything is good all the time. Seems like the most “too good to be true” that has ever been spoken into existence.
Why isn't life enough? I mean honestly. It's insane that we're actually alice. Death is the norm. That at one point i was not a sentient being. And then somehow my parents two genetics commingled/humped and because of that i'm here. And even weirder I was created on the day that both my parents stood in front of everyone and committed their undying love for eachother. Talk about the transfer of energy. Talk about Jesus' beginning. Except I actually know my father! Take that ya hippie! Maybe I'm the real jesus. Well me and apparently Kanye. But i don't mind sharing.
